Muddling Through

It's been a few weeks since my last post....end of June/beginning of July is pretty busy in our family! We went out of town for the holiday and had some birthday celebrations in between.

Just a small update. We've figured out some of the financial problems from the previous post, and have a plan of action...now we're just trying to implement it. Having to wait on some documents from the bank to send to our builder so we can get reimbursed for half of the taxes that they were supposed to pay for last year, and once we get that (it's been said they have a quick turnaround....let's hope it's true), then we can work on the rest.

That said...we've taken this month off in regards to the scientifically-enhanced baby-making processes. Don't get me wrong...we're still trying! :) Just took a pass on going through the specialist and all the appointments and sonograms and meds for this month, until we can get the finances worked out. We might skip next month too, depending on if we get the budget worked out.

But, we're trying to make it a priority to keep on track. We don't want to put it off until later, because of my age. I'm 36 1/2 already, so the more time we let go by, the more risk factors we encounter. I can see where he's coming from, but I guess I'm also a little bit in denial about it. It's a little hard to explain. I'll get into all of that more in a later post. So, anyway...point being....we don't want to put things off for a year. So, we're going to do what we can to make it happen.

So, I've tried to temp and check my body stats more thoroughly this month, but so far the charting still says I'm not fertile yet, but I also skipped while we were out of town, and last weekend...so hopefully I didn't miss it! ;) I don't think I did....things are looking pretty good as I interpret them right now, so I'm going to keep charting, and keep seducing, and we'll see what happens!

The Other Shoe Is Dropping

The first shoe is obviously the fact that we are having to go through this whole process to get another baby in the first place. Kind of like our adoption plans falling through, I think we were both kind of wondering when something would go wrong with this process.

In the course of about 18 hours, from last night to this afternoon, 3 separate and completely unrelated financial whammies have occurred, which will at the very least, postpone our plans a few months, and maybe permenantly...unless we win the lottery (which I must keep reminding myself that I have to actually buy a ticket for that to happen!) or have a rich unknown relative pass on and leave us a fortune (not likely).

We're still reviewing things to see what we can do. We do believe there are some errors in some cases that will be in our favor when corrected, but it's not enough. We were going to be scraping the bottom of the barrel for the extra $1000-$1500 we'd need each month for the treatments/appointments/drugs, and I'm 99% sure that's not going to be possible in the next few months.

I'm going to wait another week before calling Dr Pinto to let him know things are on hold.

Surgery Notes Pending

I'm writing/typing out my surgery post, but it's taking longer than I planned. I promise I'll have it up soon with all the details!!! (well, maybe not all, but enough! LOL!)

Check back soon!

Under the Knife

We're getting ready to head to the surgery center. I had some meltdowns last night, just anxiety. I'm more worried about the anesthesia than the actual procedure. But anyway.....I wrote a letter to Lily last night, just in case. I told Kevin I didn't think I could write another one to him, but he understood. I can talk to him, tell him things. He knows how I feel. I wanted Lily to have something in the future to keep, since she's so young.

Anyway, I digress....it's all for just me anyway, because I know things will be fine. I'll update tonight or maybe tomorrow on how things went.

Pre-Op Appt

We had our pre-op appointment today with Dr. Pinto. The appt was at 10:30 am....as usual, I leave in just enough time to walk in the door at 10:30. I call Kevin as I'm walking down from the parking garage at the hospital, and as he predicted, he forgot (even though we'd talked about it the past few days and I emailed him yesterday to put it on his calendar!) and was just heading out. Turns out that it didn't matter because we ended up waiting an hour in the waiting room!

Finally we get called back and go into the office. I didn't know whether there would be any type of exam today or not (turns out not) but figured it would be a pretty short appt. Dr Pinto went over what to expect when we get to the surgical center, and the basics of how the surgery will be handled:

I have to get there at 11:30 am (surgery is at 1:00). No eating or drinking after midnight, so that will be fun -I guess I'll stay up late and have a late snack, then sleep in! He will take me back while I'm still awake so that he can get me in position comfortably. He explained that he had a procedure a few years ago and they knocked him out and then put him in position, and when he woke up, he had a horrible crick in his back that lasted a few weeks! So, he takes steps to avoid that now for his patients. The procedure itself should take less than 15 mins, barring any complications. It'll be like a minor version of a D&C, just focusing on the polyp removal, while observing the rest of the uterus while he's in there to make sure there aren't any other issues. Of course there are risks.....he could poke a hole in the uterus while inserting the catheter (which has never happened to him), my uterus could absorb too much fluid, but they have safeguard procedures to prevent that from happening and they will stop the surgery if it appears that is happening well before I reach a dangerous level. And of course there's always a risk with anesthesia, which is what I'm worried about most.

I've been knocked out once before, when I was in college, to get my wisdom teeth removed. I remember being really nervous, and I remember crying as I was waking up, which they said was normal for people that are nervous. But now, I'm married and I have a little girl, and the fear is starting to get to me a little more. I know it's irrational, and that I don't have any medical reason to be so nervous, but it's still there.

Okay, back to the 'walkthrough'....after the procedure, they'll hold me in recovery in the surgery room, then take me to a recovery room to wake up (about 30-40 mins for that)....then they'll let Kevin come back after I wake up. They'll get me up and about a little, and give me some crackers and water or juice and make sure I'm good with that, and then I'll get to go home shortly after! He said I should be back to normal, able to move and work as normal, within 4 hours, but I'll still be under the effects of the anesthesia for about 24 hours. Pain-wise, I shouldn't have need for anything stronger than over-the-counter, Tylenol or Advil; if I do, then call him immediately! I should be able to eat a normal, light dinner (which I'm sure I'll be dying for by then!). Expect possible light spotting, light cramping, shouldn't get worse then that. So, in other words, if everything goes as planned, I'm probably expecting it to be worse than it actually will be.

There is also the 'unknown' white spotty area near the polyp that he couldn't tell what it was during the sono-histogram that he's going to check out...probably just scar tissue, but at least we'll hopefully find out for sure. Dr Pinto will take photos before, during and after the procedure, and while I'm in recovery, will go out and explain everything he did, so that hopefully Kevin can explain it to me later while I'm coherent. Then, I go back in about a week for a checkup, and hopefully we'll be good to go after that! Of course, I'll probably be ovulating during that week, so another cycle down.

I'm anxious, nervous, and apprehensive, but excited to get past this and get on with the process again. Kevin still has to get tested, but hopefully can get that taken care of in the next few weeks.

Oh, I almost forgot this! Yes, I have insurance, but with my deductible (which unfortunately hasn't been met yet) and my 20%, we're having to pay $853 on Friday!!!!! Ugh! At least we found this out about 3 weeks beforehand, so we had time to prepare for it.

We Have a Surgery Date!

The polyp removal has been set for June 13th at 1 pm. I have a pre-op appointment the week before to go over everything. I'm not sure why it took so long to set it, but hopefully that's the last of problems like this.

Omigosh....typing that out, I just realized my surgery is on FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!!!!!! Aaaaarrrgghh!!!

Finally!

Chandra finally called me this morning to go over when we were available to do the surgery. I had mentioned on the voicemail that it was either this Friday or June, because that is what she had told us the day of the sono-hystogram. But when she called, she made it sound like it we needed it that way! Ugh! I hope this isn't a sign of things to come.

So, she still has to call the surgery center to see what they have available. Who knows how long it will be to get another call back!